No Trigger - Pure MADNESS

That's why I was so worried. Because of the lack of trigger. He did nothing wrong. He cooked, he was sweet, perfection, but I felt something was wrong. 

Maybe I felt like I was reliving the past. Same apartment, same routine, same conversations about Argentina, so why not the same break up?  Everything was perfect last time around too, until the day he completely turned on me and broke up. Maybe I am getting scared that we are getting to that point again. Maybe the relationship is moving to quick again? For him ... for me ... for both. Who knows? 

Anyhow, whatever it was, it was still going on this morning, and then POUF, it disappeared magically from one second to another. Completely gone! 

Perhaps it was the cooking or the rollerblading, or maybe my hormones are just calming down and my sanity is back, but I feel fine right now.  At least I think so. I haven't seen him yet. 

PS: so glad I can vent to you guys without really needing to justify myself 

 - Hope you both get some good sleep soon 

And about that jerk, f*** him and his attitude - and his small penis 

Lazy summer day

True, I admit it: we are back together, but this time around I think I am much more realistic about the outcome, meaning there might not be one. This might just be temporary.

Not saying I want to end it, but I am just not holding my breath. Argentina might not happen this time around either, and I am OK with that. I don't have much control over it, but then again, what do we really have control over in our lives? Not much. 

First off, you have no control over the kind of family you are born in or the country you are born at, and I think those two factors have huge effects on your life. And then as you grow, life just throws stuff at you, and sometimes you dodge it, some other times you don't. 

I am not sure if I should be dodging what has been thrown at me right now, or embrace it/him. But dodging it/him seems too much work ... going with the flow just seems easier and requires less effort. It is summer after all. Laziness is a must .... which is why I am just a few days late answering you my dear :) 

LITTLE.BRAINS.